Last night I woke up in tears. I'd been dreaming about Flynn, dreaming of the worst memory I have of him. He was trying to get on to the bottom of my bed, but was all tangled up in wires and bandages and making that awful noise he made before he died.
This morning I am really looking forward to picking up Dexter tomorrow. I've just bought him two tiny teddies to cuddle up with - he's one of nine and going to be really lonely until he gets used to us.
Sad memories yet happy times to come. Am I nervous? Hell, yes. The responsibility of bringing up another dog is HUGE.
Am I excited? Yes, I can't wait to see how much he's grown.
Am I still feeling guilty? Hell, yes and that's the worst feeling.
But it has to pass because, although there will always be a place in my heart for my lovely boy, Flynn, I also have to make room in it for Dexter.
If I can make it interesting enough, I'm going to do a blog post about Dexter once a week. I'm sure I can add a few cute photos....
Am tearing up just thinking about the day 5 years ago when my beloved Bingo the collie had to be put down, and it wasn't nearly as traumatic as what you went through. You'll probably be like that too, forever. But it will get easier, and Dexter will definitely help. Easy to say, but don't feel guilty. You're giving a loving home to another dog. See that as a tribute to Flynn, who made you realise your life isn't complete without a dog to share it with.
ReplyDeleteI look forward to the pics of Dexter.
Wishing you many happy times ahead with Dexter and looking forward to your blogposts and pictures of him.
ReplyDeleteWonderful pictures. Dogs are generous in heart and spirit and I'm sure Flynn would love to know that Dexter is assured a wonderful home.
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to see the first pictures of Dexter in his new home!
Oh now you've made me cry! Lovely pics and I can't imagine how you feel about Flynn. We have two gorgeous rescue doggies and phew, I don't know what I will do when anything happens to them. But I am so pleased you are getting Dexter, looking forward to hearing all about it in the comming weeks.Give him a gentle pat from me when he arrives home. Hugs to you x
ReplyDeleteYou've got me in tears. Your new dog will help you heal. I still have tears after 2 yrs when I think of my lovely Cassie taken before her time as well. Looking forward to photos of the puppy.
ReplyDeleteAw, what gorgeous pictures of Flynn. I'm sure in a matter of days you'll have lots of pictures of Dexter to show us and he'll bring you oodles of joy! Good luck collecting him and let us know how you get on.xx
ReplyDeleteYou must - a blog post each week about Dexter would be wonderful. I too have taken the plunge and got a puppy (yes, me - cat woman!) We've only had Bella just over 2 weeks and already she is so much part of our family although a handful! I truly understand your anxiety but I think Flynn will be looking down and smiling. x
ReplyDeleteOh, I hope you're all right. Hopefully by now Dexter will be settling into his new home with you. Looking forwards to reading more.
ReplyDeleteThank you for all your well wishes. Each and every word has helped. And Dexter is doing brilliantly!
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